Automatic Writings 1996 Part One

Throw away all the doors dear child, so that none be shut"

Soul: Tests have come from those who would like me to use my power for darkness, and they found me totally committed to the Light, the whole, they found the attempt futile. They offer material items, they offer children, mate, everything I desire and still they get answer, which is simply that to be in wholeness with the Father, doing as the Father wishes me to do, is more important than any of those things. I would forgo all of those things to be with God. I would, I have endured hardship to be with God, and this is better than to be without the divine wholeness of God. I have been committed to path all along unwavering, through much difficulty and lessons. There is nothing that can be offered to me that would even distract me from goal now. Christ standing forth. Teaching through example, the divinity of God life well lived. So be it.

Diane: Removed implants in meditation today.

Atara: This is good knowledge, and removal of all implants. Some were of negative intent from others, some were placed by self, some were placed during time of vulnerability by Sentalitta, with those who were aware trying to affect you before you arrive. They waited until times when you were doing well to give out their poison. These two in the dream were about to activate, to attempt to stop you from achieving things that are within your grasp. Healing has occurred, so large a healing as you do not now comprehend. This heat is healing heat. You know your faith has often suffered because of those implants, and I am very glad they have been found and gotten rid of. Things move quickly within you and there is nothing between you and great accomplishment. I am with you dear friend, holding your hand, know that you can call to me in any moment you feel your faith wavering.

Guides: Drink deeply of God's love. Allow it to fill your total being, leaving nothing but joy to experience within. Allow the music of your Soul to awaken, as you have a gift to give in this music. You give reign to it then shut it down again in fear, or in feeling there is no way to express it. This music is healing for you and it will change any mood to a joyous one. Forget not the simplest of acts, for they offer the greatest fulfillment of expression. God is in every act, small and large and always seeking perfect expression of all the love that is in absolute abundance in every second. Seek to be in the God space where music lives, and music will flow from you without effort. Music is infinite and ever expanding. It is common ground for people, even though there are so many kinds. There is always a tie from one to the other. No variety stands on it's own, with no relatives, so to speak. Reach out and accept this as a large part of your Spirit's overall life essence. Do not put yourself into comparison with another. It is expression of Soul. No two Souls can be compared, except in the divine spark, where they are God and thus absolutely equal and one, do you see. My dear there is joy in all things that you are willing to see joy in. There are times when what was once drudgery, can be joyous, and for some vice versa. There are exciting freedoms your Spirit is unleashing and letting expression take hold. You have earned these freedoms, use them to further joyous thoughts and activities. You will have no one to blame when you feel unhappy or out of balance, and this too in proper perspective is a gift of freedom. Self-responsibility always brings greater freedom and you are ready to be on your own, facing your demons and fears, to claim your total freedom, by unleashing God within you. Dear child you are loved, loved, loved, let it flow.

Hawk Consciousness: He who seeks, finds. He who finds, receives. He who receives, gives. He who gives is God. That which you desire is being given unto you, receive, you sought, and found your desire was simpler than previously thought. You found, you receive now and you desire to give, and shall give. You are God man processing standing forth. Hawk welcomes you to the sky of the Father and the freedom of flight. We are loved by the Father as you are loved by the Father. The gifts of the Father are the child's freedom. It's your gift, take it and when it is time you offer it to others.

Demetra: Take flight Diane. We are all with you, we love you. Continue to concentrate on forgiveness. It is good, it is the path to Mastery. There are many assisting, you are ready to fly free from this nest you have self created, over these past almost 7 years now. You are ready, you know you can, you know you have done it before. Be joyous in your coming of age, so to speak, and continue to receive all that the universe, that is God, is sending you always. Much love dear child.

Diane: Feeling Angry tonight. How can I teach, when I can't master the teachings? How can I heal or teach about healing, when my body feels so out of control, as well as my mind. It is nothing but talk, unless I can do it.

Group: All is well child, it is good to get this anger out. You have held it in a long time now. Let it go. Shout it out to the universe. It is part of claiming your divinity. This anger at the mortal life and mortal ways, while trying to walk the Christ road. We have all experienced this child, it is normal healthy progression. Time as you know it, moves quickly in these end times. This adds to your frustration. Know that God within has heard all your prayers and that you await an answer. It is difficult, this transition from mortal to God self, but know it truly is only a small time in the overall scheme of things. This does not ease the pain my dear, but this pain is birth pain, and must be walked through to reach out and take your inheritance and rightful place in God's kingdom. There are many of us who have tread the path and not reached the ideal. You are not one of those my dear, it is obvious to us as we send you love to take the difficult steps that we have all taken before you. If you have moments of doubt within your mind, trust that we see a larger picture. A picture where this current situation of living is of no importance what so ever. One where your body is changing in positive ways. You are yet to see a picture, where true fulfillment is yours and joy is more than a desired word to feel. Where love becomes every cell and only love sustains you. A picture where your light rays reach out and touch that love to every living thing with absolute perfection. My dear the desire is worth the work. The hardships and pain you have endured. It is worth the lack of understanding of people who wonder what you are doing with your life. Worth the temporary physical discomforts of tent and body. You will never look back to this time and wish you had left your body. You will glorify body and mind and blaze a trail so bright that others may dare to follow, this is surly not nothing dearest child of God. This is all that is. There is nothing else worth achieving in the world. Know, trust, have faith my dear and a little patience will lead you home to the place your heart has yearned for your whole life. Heaven right within and shining brightly for all to see and feel. There are joys of which you can not even imagine in store for you on this path dear girl. Chin up with pride, continue your walk. We will be planning a glorious celebration for the day you walk past the final limitation and join us in the real world. Love to you child. We offer you hope, please take it to heart, and keep it well and safe. Dare to dream the ideal Diane, for the ideal will become you and you the ideal.

Soul: I am here God within and present in every moment. God is loving and welcomes you in every moment to the goodness that the universe is truly. We are of one source God and the children of Christ. All of the creatures created, thus when you feel separated from the place in you where you find me, you see aloneness all around. When you walk hand in hand with me, you know aloneness is not possible, it is but illusion, for the whole universe is always with you. You desire the human touch and this is human nature, part of being in the physical experience. You will have this and goal both, not one or the other. All, all is yours in the kingdom of Heaven. Love and be love in every moment, even when the loving is not physical, and when the physical one comes unto you, you will know how to love him fully without hesitation. Learn love from God source within and expand outward exponentially, and all of creation will respond with joyous music. That is all.

Diane: Received universal laws as symbols, put them into brain as well as individual cells. Asked for use of law in obvious way to help show me the way.

Group: Know freedom God child. Know it, do not long for it, it is here, it is yours. No one can keep you from God's freedom, even if your body were imprisoned for life, you my dear, would be free. This is the place you are at and we are all well pleased and joyous to see your Spirit begin to sing it's special song. Let the melody flow and the harmonies come forth gently. It is already written and perfectly performed dear child. Simply put your self consciously into it's healing flow, and allow it to carry you through the cleansing of issues that move their way out from deep within. If only there was a mirror that could be given you that would allow you to truly see yourself as we all see you. You would be illuminated immediately, and never look away from your true image, the ideal, the Godself that is alive within you and seeks a fuller expression with every passing moment.

Know dear child that you are loved. Loved more deeply than the human mind comprehends love could be in totality. There are many moments you feel are wasted dear, know there is no such thing. Every moment now you are a moment closer to God within even in moments of deep sadness. It is no easy task to move out of a lifetime full of mortal issues into the new life where issues do not exist, and only God fills you. You do a great service to self when you express them outward in these writings, for then they are let go. Yes, many return on subsequent days, but these are the layers of consciousness dear child, and one day you will find them all cleared, and you will see with total unlimited vision, the true glory of a life lived, and God moves through you toward this day. Each moment you are cradled in the arms of God, moving toward this end. You have given your life back to God. Remember that it was only illusion that it was ever separate, but now that you no longer recognize the illusion, the greatest gifts of life move to you in every moment, and you received them with an open heart. They collect and move inside you, until they move out everything that is not representative of the highest part of God, and you become the thing that you have set forth as ideal, and standing forth in this Godness, you reach out the hand of God to others and offer glimpse of reflection of the God that lies dormant in themselves. This my dear, is the greatest gift you give unto yourself. It will fill your every thought with joy to do this work, and all are looking forward to this joyous flow, and the knowing that the tears that have flowed for many years will have all dried, and you will see only hope and love in the face of every creature and every man. That is all.

Group: You choose God, you choose joy, love and eternal life. You can only live your choice. You cannot do anything about the choices of others even when it is heartbreaking to see. When you know that everything that was offered to you that allowed you to choose God was offered them equally. We cannot take time for sadness in Spirit for those parts of God who choose fear. They are too great a number. We must take time to be joyous for each who chooses to come home. Home will always be here for the others, and with each who comes home the porch light grows brighter and the yard less frightening for those who are yet to come and our arms are wide open for all our brethren. Dear Diane, you are well loved. ‘Tis no gift to God to sacrifice your return to help another return home. From home you can devote your life to helping all of humanity. ‘Tis not selfish to see to your own reunion with God. Once unveiled, all serve the whole. It is unselfish wholly. It leads all closer to harmony and wholeness. There are those who would argue. Mind you, they have yet to come home or even perceive home. Do not get caught up in the hoopla of a society in decline. Spiral upward and find unity and wholeness achieved. More can you do as God expressed than a million mortals at their best. We welcome you in every moment. Do not weep, the transition from family. Let go with love knowing it is God that is calling.

Diane: Just a thought in regard to yesterdays writing about letting go of family. It seems that is similar to the new cliché of dying (near death). You leave body, you see the light so inviting, feels so good etc.. Hear family holding, calling you back, only it's not death, it's life and the choice is not mortal but divine. Go the light and don't look back. It's where the real work is.

Great meditation, rushes of energy and healing received from within. Awakening cells to perfection within them. Celebration, joyous gifts from God ready to move on now. Retrograde very successful time. Sang songs, danced across the universe. Sent love to the most heinous people who are, or ever lived. They didn't like it, but it felt great to me. Wished well every life and felt the joy and fun of sending out the love and joy I felt at what seemed to be the first total opening of a door or something. Felt it from seat of soul, Christ self opening to Divine Mother / Father to envelope the whole body with this wonderful love that is willingly received from within. Good, very good. I felt it and could feel all my Spirit friends joyous around me.

Bestali: All is well. Yes all time, 7 years worth of all is well and lo and behold, all is well. How did that happen huh? That all could be well after all? Oh gosh, good stuff happens to those who pray in earnest to God within, and follow the love where it takes them, and of course it takes them to unity and wholeness, Godness. That whole word got mistaken for goodness, although that is not a bad word either. Godness is what we are in truth, and what else is there. Tatiacha, Master of the Wind calls her friends to celebrate the Godness of her Soul. It shall be a formal affair hosted by none other than JoAllen of course. Who else could throw such an important party? Good night.

Diane: Sphere - elemental chakras are on the Sphere. They are like the plugs and / or vacuums that control the Sphere. Within the Sphere with these chakras fully activated. Food and water are purified, air is purified, and toxins are vacuumed out. Fill the Sphere with the purest, brightest God light and anything dark is illuminated and immediately transmuted. So the Kundalini flow is the first awakening of the Sphere because the elemental chakras are awakened to a time of higher consciousness. Awakening from within and begin to move the energy accordingly.

Father Creator Within: Dearest child of God, dear girl of life. Father speaks out to you now from within. See us not as two or three, but see now that we are one and only one. Never were these two or three. God is you, you are God, the within place where God is alive within you has been reached opening new experiences and today is a day to rejoice and know that God is everywhere. Your Sphere is your heaven. Keep it always illuminated with the greatest light from your God space and you will do all great works from your heaven. Spheres are seen in what has been perceived as the Heavens by dogma do you see? The are the macrocosm of your personal heaven. A universal Sphere filled with spirals and all shapes and sizes of small Spheres from cells to chakras. This is your universe and with it fully illuminated it comes into perfect order, as God is orderly in the creation of all universes. The synchronicity is perfect and good and everlasting love fills this universe always. There has been a great rite of passage during this time of month that the conscious mind was unaware of. It awakens to this knowing slowly and brings forth bits and pieces of this truth to it's processing centers in an attempt to organize it and make it fit into logical reference. Whether it ever achieves that goal is of no consequence because Gods within plan moves too quickly through you and more changes come and come. There has been a "time" that you have awaited, abundance in the physical as well as the spiritual, emotional and mental. This time has passed now as you have learned how to fully receive and give life, love and healing and have learned to receive from God within to every aspect of self, filling your Sphere with Gods great and brilliant light

There are now only small steps to take and the time is at hand for you to take these steps on your own. There is no way to share them with others or for them to experience them without fear of the unknown, of what is happening to you, nor should you be attempting to explain to them or deal with reaction or expectation of others. It is often true that when one receives the knowledge of how to bring forth from the universal that if others such as family are around, their desires for material things to be created for them is so great that the person feels they do not wish to accept this gift because of the "needy" hands being held out. This is why no one should be around as you manifest this gift and learn to master it and see good and not good desires in strangers who know not your ability, but enter your Sphere. Do you see?

Diane: Did another meditation illuminating my Sphere. Found a dark alley. Finally got it lit up and people were huddling. Went to them and touched them. They turned into birds and flew away out of Sphere, then ended with a beautiful image of eagle. Went down more alleys, lit them up and found a huge dark building on one street. Went in and had enough light to see. Anyway, said "let their be light" Started to light up more and more. Hugh halls with pillars, then huge room full of people (past lives). They flew away out of Sphere in huge flock. Then at a canyon flying with / on eagle I fall off. Eagle catches me gently brings me to edge of canyon. Beautiful sights light my whole heaven. Then at sea, huge storm, lightening hits boat out in water. Hugh wave. I stop storm standing on water. Stop lightening, blue sky, water wild. I slow it down and step onto a rock overlooking the ocean. Demand the ocean be calm and ocean becomes placid with blue cloudless sky and beautiful gentle light. Many guides et al, impressed I could do (calm) storm on my first try. Said takes many tries normally. Well done.

Diane: Broke through shell of body in Sphere. Broke off pieces and got rid of. They kept trying to come back and then it was together as all on shell and it was male. Got rid of it. This is a female body, female expression in this life, want to be feminine woman not tomboy type. Put out light from chakras until whole body was illuminated.

Diane: The Sphere light is wave light not ray light. Rays go out from it generating give, receive etc., but this new receive from Godself energy to fill Sphere with light and excess goes out from Sphere in waves. Like a pebble hitting a calm pond, waves of love. Said, body was like in womb only instead of being suspended in water it is suspended in the God light, which is purest love, healing, forgiveness, joy. That this light moves in and through body effortlessly in Sphere. Breathe it, eat it, drink it even when mind won't allow visual of it. There is no cloud, only mind clouding visual perception of what is occurring in order to confuse the matter.

Bestali: All is well as I always say. Yes it is the Bestali classic. You are working through new layers quickly, quickly, quickly. Fear not, fear not. All the synchronized plans are in perfect union and are taking place now. You have been true to your goal and relentless in letting go of old layers and recognizing fears and today recognizing your fear of giving up victim hood because it is the key to your ability to manipulate. It's a huge acceptance of past ways and tremendous healing now takes place. All is well and you will be energized and able to do much. You are changing inside and out. Bestali loves you much and I will have good times helping you.

Archemedes: Be strong in your desire as you have been. It takes you far and you shall accomplish great and wonderful acts of God so to speak. We all look forward to the alone time and the work we will do together during and after this time. Look forward with joy, to when the time has arrived. Hang out the fear and doubt about this change as you did today. Hang it out, look at it and say, so what, I offer you no power. You may fear and doubt yourself all the way down the road to Godness. So that power has been given fully to God which leaves none left for fear or doubt. They are now but empty emotions with no cause or effect because action has moved above them where life is untouchable. Grieve no more, the leaving of the mortal life and mortal family. We await you in Eden. Your God family is ever at your side and we look forward to becoming your new mortal, and I use the term loosely "God" family. That is a joyous union of God empowerment for all.

Sentelitti: My dear friend, there is a story of Melchizeldek that speaks of the lives preceding total illumination. It is of a fear that no longer has a life and although it is but a fear it is afraid to die. After some time it forgets what it is a fear of and now only is a fear to die. But does it have a life if it knows not what it is a fear of? All your fears have begun to forget what they are fears of and hold onto only that they fear their own demise so to speak. In the temple of no fear you honor them, tell them what they were a fear of and leave them there to transmute into new life thus letting go of the fear of their own demise. Now they get to offer the universe something positive as they have you by pushing you on the within path. They have served you well. Now you honor them as you set them free. This is a good and glorious thing.

Diane: Light. Rays, waves, pulse. Rays can carry waves and pulse to definite destination, then radiant love cannot be focused, it simply is. Once it has begun it can't be stopped

Soul: I am God right within and active. All things change now by divine decree. It is so and all is known and understood, lessons learned, fears faced and conquered, leaving only action to take place from this point forward. There are changes in perception of goal, but true goal is adhered to with zest and joyous knowing. There is freedom of choice within structured plan, allowing for the movement of inspiration and advancement. Take away expectancy of expressed fears and only true work remains.

Bestali: I am here now, and this has been a good night of looking within at old patterns, and relationships that no longer serve you. They do not benefit you and so do not benefit the whole. If anything impedes on the growth or end of limitation or true expression than it is not best for the whole, for what is best for the whole is the return of each one. You are beyond wanting or doing anything that would harm your personal growth or harm the whole. You want what is best for all and that will keep you on a path to your true goal to stand forth. There are no expectations on you by any other than self. Desires to complete levels of growth in a timely manor, of which you are still ahead of schedule. We are all here with you and will never leave or falter in our love and devotion. We are proud of the growth you accomplish and desire your joy in creating life as you want it to be. Ever more your life will be changed for the good, for the God within you will move you into and through the expressions of life, as you choose, and it will be a good and loving life, for that is a choice you have already made. Sleep now and come be with your friends and family.

Soul: Divine God, Highest Self, female presentation is what has been experienced, oneness, and integration of self. Preparation for total standing forth of the Christness that is you/me/we. Love child is what we are, total love that is ever expanding into the whole universe. The I am, highest expression of this love is here within me. The universal law is me, truth is me, God is me. I am all that is. There are changes coming that will move me on to new expression and new life, that is almost unrelated to old self. Moving on occurs as asked for on every level. Physical moving on is at hand. Be with the love. Know that God from within me has brought this all forth. That is all.

Group: Diane we are here, the many whom you love and love you. There are changes occurring that will shake you up, so to speak, in a positive way, although surprising. Know that we are with you. You have planned well. You did not leave yourself out on a limb, so to speak. You planned for all contingencies. There are times when the fear patterns within yourself and others become so crystal clear as to boggle the senses as to how it could possibly happen, and continue when it is so glaringly obvious. Try not to dive too deeply into the abyss of trying to figure it out, simply know that in truth, it does not concern you. That is all. Love to you Diane.

Diane: The Earth Mother is due to give birth to the phoenix on April 20, why am I having this Phoenix dream a month ahead of time? Is this going to occur early. Do I need to be here in the valley when it happens? (Valley of the Sun in the Phoenix Arizona area)

Guides: The time period for the birth is much like if you were pregnant yourself. In the last month it is best not to venture to far away. Not a good time to travel. The Phoenix is fully formed and could be birthed now at any time, as the Earth Mother sees fit, and as the new planetary consciousness feels is best for it's final growth and life ahead. Be ready, you will know. You are closely related to this whole situation, and one of only a few who have conscious knowledge of the event taking place. Earth Mother will need your love and support as well as the others who know, to ease her in her transition. Unlike with humans birth for her is also a letting go, for the consciousness doesn't require nurturing to adulthood. She needs you here. We will allow her to write.

Earth Mother: Dearest one Earth Mother here now. You are a kind and loving friend, much also like a parent to me, as you were here when I came to be. It has been a long process for us both. You understand birth and letting go of your child, this I know. There will be a time of joy and grieving for me, a completion, and time for new beginning. This all will lead well into the changes I wish to make that affect all life that lives upon me. I know that you have received from the desert all that you have needed from it and it is time for you to return to my abundant places. This I grant and will carry you there with physical ease and ever flowing protection. I need you here during the birth as a stabilizing force dear friend. There are many in the abundant places to assist. It is here that I need your abundance of strength, love and grace. It will not be long now and I feel this daughter readying to leave the womb. Simply be with me here child. I shall reward you with absolute abundance. Yes I know you need not reward to be here with me. I know you love me and will be ever at my side when I need you, but reward I must. You have given more than you consciously know and together we change and reach out to the golden glow of true Creator within us. Dearest friend the time is at hand when you will walk upon me with the full glory of the Christed one, and teach those who would listen about what will come. You are as Noah child, you will bring the Godly home to safety and ensure the continuation of life and love within my Sphere. All is well child. Thank you and we shall triumph together as the Phoenix child flies free and the expansion of` God's love grows and continues. Love to you.

Diane: Earth in labor working hard 12:49 P.M., as yet unborn.

Phoenix flew free at about 7:50 P.M.. Earth Mother connected grids to asteroids, to guide them to her for the coming changes. Saw myself in everything and everything in me, with realization that literally everything my body could need is in the empty spaces in my body. Herbs, flora, hormones, healthy cells, medicine of any kind, protein, food stuff, emotions; love, fulfillment, joy, etc.. All there, every second, waiting to be put to use in the perfection of God me. I am God, thus I am love, harmony, truth.

Bestali: I am here now and this day is one to remember. The new planet we will call Phoenicia, for the Phoenix symbology, and it shall be a grand and beautiful planet. You shall see her often and participate in her growth. Earth Mother knows this and it helps her to let go. As you saw, the asteroids have been contacted and now the timing for the axis shift has been set into motion, with no turning back! It has been a long road from your perspective, short road from mine, and truth is relative therefor we are both right. That's nice huh? Yes, I thought you would think so. We will be with you and it shall be a pleasant journey from both our perspectives. That is all.

Aleasa: You are protected. Have no fear of your personal safety. No harm can or will come to you. We are ever vigilant and at your side to assist you. Continue to work with God's golden light. It has found resistance, this means it has great significance, or what would there be to resist. Do not give in to depression my dear, for it is but a symptom of emotional clearing you go through. Seek instead to assist and speed up the clearing. Be positive, for only good is coming. The day will come when you will see the reasons why you thought Beverlee the best choice for your mother in this life. Know that her faults can serve you as well as her strengths. All is well and as always you are greatly loved my friend.

Atara: It has been long since we have written. We need to touch base here, as you feel your faith flounders. This you know is my job, so to speak. I do not feel that your faith flounders, simply it reaches down and it is challenged by a new level of resistance, at the deepest level of the subconscious. Faith filters down like everything else. It is often hardest to see the obvious at times of deep emotional clearing, especially when a parent or close family member is concerned. You are grieving in advance of the loss of a relationship that has been paramount in your life, even though it has at times been negative, to the point of extremely toxic. A mother is a mother you see. The mother issues of self are there despite the clarity on the Soul involved. There has been a certain dance that has been in motion from birth. Now you grieve the end of the dance, even though your feet hurt and you're tired and you want to sit and have some food and drink. This makes you inevitably human. Every daughter must end the dance at some point in order to truly live her own life. Some go to their grave wanting their mother, this is not you my dear. You let this go now and forever, that is why you came back to Arizona, to do this to let go of Mother ever more. It has been a 2 1/2 years in the process here and this is good timing. You knew it would take this time. Do not ever think it wasted or blank. It serves you in ways you will understand one day. We have gone through levels and levels of faith and you question your choice to not have contact with a Master in the physical, to show you the final steps ,to allow your mind to see that it can be done. Know this, this mother work now completing frees you then to call a physical Master to do this for you. Push forth the golden God Light, it is an achievement of great magnitude, you have been moving toward a very long time. Your healing you ask of God is occurring now within you Diane. Allow it. Do what you can to facilitate it All is well, very well indeed.

Bestali: 7 years indeed, it has been and this is a sacred Master number and cycle in creation. You begin a cycle at that time that ends now and a new and glorious cycle begins. Don't worry, be happy!! All is well and tomorrow shall be a good day. Easter, think of the teachings that Jesus gave on this rising from the dead, so to speak. See the old self die and rise from your own ashes, so to speak, as Jesus did. Like the Phoenix. Things can change quickly, as you have seen in recent days. Worry not, how many times in 7 years do I say worry not? Hundreds? Thousands? Be with God. You do good work, even when you think yourself distracted. God moves inside you with free reign that you give at beginning of your meditation. This golden God Light is one of the final steps in your process, and energy moves into universe to create necessary changes for your life to move into next level. Rejoice and know that it shall be a spring and summer filled with fun and excitement and adventure.

Eric and I are back in Show Low Lake campground. It is getting too hot in Apache Junction. Randy is living here in the campground in a borrowed trailer and Mom has the motor home in Mesa for a few weeks.

Bestali: All is well and you are well cared for as well. You are never alone, you are surrounded by love and God stuff every second of every day. There is never a time when you are not in God and God in you. Dear friend, we are ever at your side with you as Jesus said "there is no other path for you now. You have made choices every step of the way in Spirit and in your conscious version of self that have led you to only one path, one possibility / probability". It is no longer probable or possible but absolute, based on your choices and creation. Reunion with the Father is the choice you have made. Complete reunion in body, mind, Soul on earth, reaching out and taking and accepting your perfection. This is the choice you have gifted to your self. You have come to know and understand the golden light of the Father. The white light is but a potential there of. These different types of light are teaching you well of rays, waves, pulses, radiating and the healing heat, the love, the grids, the golden light is all these things simultaneously. It is the completion, it is what can heat a room, what can power a machine, what can light your way in the dark of the physical. You have filled your Sphere with this golden light much sooner than even you anticipated. This is what has been causing you such great emotional stress. The quickness of it all and you felt as if you accomplished nothing of late!! Time must move forward now in order for you to deal with the emotional and mental impact of this spiritual awakening. We need you to not have to deal with family or dogs other than you own. This is a change no one can understand but those who have been there themselves and even Jesus needed to do this. All is well, he wishes to speak.

Jesus: I am here as I agreed to be, here so to speak before I returned to Source as entity. We did this work together and now you understand that as Source I am in all things and beings including you so that any higher self can meet their potential as Jesus so to speak and be not dishonest. Does not have to be a member of the Christ Council as previously thought. That is not what we do however. It was agreed that when you found fully the golden light of the Father within you that I would come to you and help you through to the perfection of accepting your dominion by standing forth. The world is in great need of you child, great need indeed. This is why your life in all of it's imperfections is a open book so to speak. Why you chose a broken family, manipulative mother, absentee father etc.. You see this makes you real to people in the world who think God is far away from their lives because they have been not perfect lives do you see? All is well and all these things serve you well. You will never feel loneliness even when you spend time physically alone. You will know true fulfillment as few others know, and all desire. This is truly what all seek even if they think they do not believe in God. They seek this place unbeknownst to the physical mind. In these 7 years you have been given a system where by any who can honestly seek the within path and look at their issues and fears as you have can find this place of God. Soon the whole path of it will become abundantly clear to you in easy simple steps and you will put it forth by itself in a book as it is not complex. I will be ever at your side. Do not worry about getting comfortable here for you have chosen another place for us to do this work together. Dearest Diane, know that you are truly and completely loved, loved, loved. God is ever you. The universe of heaven is you and all is better than well.

Angelic Hierarchy: We are here child. It has been a long path to take our place in the running of this planet. You have been here all along assisting us through even as you have struggled with your own karmic patterns. We and the Earth Mother welcome you home! Your true dominion is respected by all and we look forward to you beginning this new and glorious phase of your work as God the Christed one here on earth. Anything you need now in this transformation time is yours freely from the hierarchy and the earth, in alignment with the wishes of God within you and the whole abundance is yours dearest child of God, abundance on every level. Take the step and move on from those who fear letting you go. You are ready to go now. So be it. We are ever at your side. Call to us as needed or desired.

Archemedes: Dearest friend, I too am pleased with the accomplishment of a long goal. We look forward to a joyous reunion in Shambala and there will be much to celebrate and plan for the future work together.

Bestali: I am back now. Lots of people want to talk, talk, talk. They don't realize the time it expends in the physical to write. Well, they do, but they are all excited Flanecti is excited too. He senses where you are and then filters through his dog mind. Already this move away has been a great help to him. All is well, we will talk more in meditation. Samantha wants you to know she loves you and is here with you also.

Serenticidi: I am here now. Healing is a emotion filled event so to speak. You rock the polarities of your healing of family issue. Does not mean you must walk away and never have contact although you do indeed have that choice as well. There are many times you have thought about these possibilities. Know you could never be alone in a universe full of God love and God light. You are cherished dear deeply by all parts of God. Let go of these ties and they will find their way or not. There are others equal in learning that await you and will see your God light shine and appreciate it. Know it was the work you did within that brought you to the wisdom and knowledge you have. No one did it for you. You did it on your own without any physical teacher to push or prod. Your own motivating force to know yourself fully. You will be among true peers soon my dear. Let go and be ready to move on and do remember you owe no one any excuses or explanations for your choices period. They have no right to expectation.

Jesus: I am still here with you. Now you have tried long and hard to take Randy down the path with you and now you feel sad it cannot be. There is time for Randy to find his way if he chooses. Go about yours. You are not who they see. You must go and be who you are as you without this influence. You can do it. You know that you can do it and it is up to them to cope as they may. You are open to God taking you where you are needed. Worry not, you shall be and they shall be where God wants them. You will not have these hardships now and you will be empowered by doing your work on your own! Drink deeply of your own Godness child. It is alive and can no longer be tamed by others even family members any more than you, Master of the Wind could tame the winds this day.

Group: Dearest child of God know we are all here with you. You shall call those who are ready to gather and begin community. You see it is you my dear not this family that must call the tribe. You are Cougar and Falcon. Randy must seek bear’s help in order to find the eagles path and Beverlee must seek dog to track down her deer energy to move on for themselves. It is time to move Cougar and Falcon into full force with the work that is intended for this medicine. Lizard has dreamt the creation and brings it so. Bear is there taking you to eagle, and the squirrel readies for the gathering. Antelope awaits the calling of this action and ant teaches you how to serve self and whale as one. Turtle as always is with you in Gods love on this earth day. She thanks you for your patience and love and says go forth child of Spirit and Earth and create as God creates. You are loved, loved, loved dearest child. You will have more "help" than you know. The things you know not about will come to you right when you need them, people as well. Perfect synchronicity is in order for this plan my dear dear girl. We are as one in a great experiment of love and it is a joyous union of peace and simplicity. We await your arrival in the town in need of you. Enjoy the journey to find this place. It is a gift of fun and adventure.

Earth Mother: Child of my heart and parent as well of my creation. The difficult time of dimension change and birth of Phoenicia is over now and I am fully energized and ready to work into the future to regain balance of my body and retain a species gone mad. Reclaim for God what is Gods to reclaim. There is but little time in the long run to do much and yet we are not hurried. There is perfect time for us. Time only runs out for others who know not of what they do or what I do that is to come for them! I am ready to work with you for the teaching and gathering of the tribe of Christ as it were. There will be many who will respond to your gentle loving way, a side that you are only beginning to understand. Your true side when removed from environment that leads you to believe otherwise in a mass of illusions that surround you.

You are God as am I, never doubt that we are one and I am ever at your side to assist you joyously in all of Gods work and you assist me and we are both strengthened by our union. On this earth day, many make speeches and speak of how they must try harder to be in harmony and yet they still do not see me as a truly living being. A whole, not just an ecosystem that thrives on my surface, but a puzzle piece of Gods totality same as themselves. Tell them I am alive and I am God my friend and keep saying it until those who can, listen and those who can't or won't perish from the physical until they can. Love to you dearest friend.

Guides: You are welcome for the clouds. The winds bring them Winds of Change. All is well and you will be soon on the road to a new life filled with God in all ways. On the physical road as well as spiritual to doing meaningful work with purpose that will lead you to meet people of like mind that you can connect with. You have been desiring these connections and they will bring great joy to you and them. We have plans for Randy and unfortunately for Edith they don’t include Show Low Lake. It is time also for him to move on to where he can learn and experience what will put him on the good and proper path. OK Eric has gone now for a couple nights this will be a slight more dog walking but very good for piece of mind and privacy. The time is ripe child to pick the good fruit you have grown, your crop is abundant and will satisfy you greatly. Much love to you, we send every moment of every day.

Diane: I've had processing dreams lately and that's about it. I forgot to write yesterday that I've been having deja vu experiences that I realize when they happen were dreams I woke up not remembering in Darrington.

Masters: There is much hope within the hearts now of many who know you come, allowing Christ God full expression would be a good and positive thing mentally, emotionally, physically and also indirectly spiritually. The work begins now. We know you are ready and we look forward to the "creation" energy that comes forth from you for this into a glorious expression. You will do well and it will shine from you body, mind, Soul and emotion. You physical will rejuvenate mind, focus emotions. Soar with gratification of working for God and Soul. Sing with joy as this work frees it to fly as every Spirit would see a Soul fly. It is good, good, good. We are here with you and you are loved to the fullness of the universe. Know the love, shine it out that all know how you are loved by the Father as Jesus did. Let it all flow and the flow will envelop you and give you joy the likes of which the mind has feared to contemplate. Sing your song, join in the harmony. The music of Gods love is playing eternally and grows glad with every voice joined to the whole. Winds of change are the lyrics of return. Know that change is growth and expansion and when seen as that it can be nothing other.

Masters: Today is a dimensional shift of a personal nature as the earth has shifted into her emotional dimension. You shift into spiritual dimension and it is a good thing and you will understand fully what is meant by this in a short time. Worry not this mind is always thinking and trying to put spiritual events into physical terms that cannot apply. There are parts of God unnamed in all language. They cannot be done justice, much as the word love is meaningless and multi meaning at the same time. It cannot live up to it's truth. No word could live up to the truth of God, love or even unconditional human love or the love that binds together the universe in joyous celebration of love. Much is made clear through feeling and knowing and there are many who refuse to feel or know anything and so they get left out of the gloriousness of all that is not of words. However feelings can be put behind words and knowing as well. That is why when Jesus said to the people "love each other" they understood and when his teachings are repeated in the bible they become only words because Jesus did not write the bible or put the feeling and knowing behind the words. This is a skill you have been learning and you can often see it with Randy. He understands concepts from you that he would not understand from another. This is how we have taught you and why despite all the lessons you still turn to us and have trust and love in our guidance. Randy did not receive all the teachings in the same way. You see the importance of this. Words can have power but words made powerful by God are different. Allow God to work this skill now and ever more through you. It is much needed skill in a society mad and crazy, wanting God so desperately that they know not that it is God they want, do you see? Shift yourself into new self hood now, it is yours. You have earned it on the within path. God has abundance of gifts with your name on them. Receive them now. It is time you will leave this place now and not look back. Randy will seek his way. He is dissatisfied with day to day and sees you moving to do work that is more satisfying to the Soul. He will be motivated to find same for self. We have much hope for Randy's return to a good path of learning. You will be as an example God provideth for the work outward, because you did the work inward and he knows this to be truth. Beverlee and Eric will do what they do, your father as well. You will live your life without binds to them. This is why you will change your name. It is an act of removal from the limited earth life they gave to you. Choice to move beyond it into Gods life. You take Gods name and move on to live the life God intended for you. It has been a long road to know you could be free from family and yet maintain yourself as a family centered person which was imperative for your children. You are first generation of a new family without the ties and superstitions and limitations of heritage or race or all the other limitations that get handed down like religion. You are the foremother so to speak. The beginning, an Eve of sorts and this is a good thing. A gift given that is 7 years in the receiving consciously. All is well and you will go on and stand forth and Gods love will be expressed through another in it's true divine form and this will be reason for a great and glorious celebration that we will all attend. Love, love is, you are loved, feel it, know it. These are not just words, they are God empowered words.

Group: Good, this is good. You should not be defined by these others, anymore than we were defined by Bestali. You always listened to what we all had to say and realized that we had different styles and personalities and you did not put us into a limited space but realized that our unique perspectives added fullness to the knowledge. We were not one right one wrong, but all sharing different experiences of the same situation. It has been that you have been living as a shadow in your world to your mother and others and you have allowed this at times because it was easy, more comfortable. But now it has come to where people do not listen or hear what you have to say. They are afraid of the power that you really are and look for ways to put you off. There has long been a desire to please your parents and it has been long and hard to let go of. It matters not about parents or the opinions of a town or anyone else. Even Jesus had to learn this and come to terms with this, do you see? What if he wanted to please all the Jews, the Sanhedrin? Can you see, you cannot please all. Even standing forth, many will fear and many will wish to be dependent upon you and few will want to work and find the way. You must be on your own terms with no one to answer to but God within you. For he is the only one who knows of how true the expression or what is best for union with the whole. Now you must turn there and there alone. We will ever be here for support and discussion, but choice, decision and truth must be from inside. Not even us, do not try to please even us. We love you, as is, unconditionally my dear. Know this is our truth.

Soul: God is ever here inside living Christ and willing to do all that will assist in return and awakening of wisdom and helping of whole. To do same, commit on conscious self to the work and the way is at hand. Name to be changed. It must be Tatiacha, do you see? This current name includes limitations of this life and family.

Father: Do you see the changes in yourself? Now do you see that once your words to me were the same as another’s are, and now you say I trust you God my Father to take care of all, to give all, to be all and I open all doors to your complete expression. Indeed you think - God helps those who help themselves and this society has placed the phrase to belong with their work ethic of work yourself to heart attack and if you feel any joy you are not working hard enough. The phrase is about Inner work. God helps those who help themselves by truly seeking him within them should be the phrase. It is about those who desire to know their divine inheritance you see. Those willing to look at their fears and all of their limitations. You do this and more than you are consciously aware now. Looking at your true motives and subconscious patterns has become a way of life for you now. The other wishes to deny and blame on a different level. All is well and you are not to be concerned but joyous in the love that is yours as my divine child.

Earth Mother: I am here now child of Spirit and earth. Now that Phoenicia is on her own you know that I have become more serious about the coming changes. This earthquake in Seattle was a warning and an opening of certain earth corridors that will allow for further changes. It will not be long now before the bigger changes. The dust bowl winds and intermittent floods have begun. Problems with prices will continue as I do my cleansing changes. C Crop failures will become more common, stock deaths as well. The organic food will become a more rare commodity. Abundance will not seem so abundant for those who seek not God. Those who do will find my blessings upon them and will be provided for. It is the time to ready the store and be sure people know about it so that as these changes occur the true seekers will be drawn to you and the store. Community will form with those of like mind. Indeed dearest one there now is no turning back. The asteroids come this way and cannot be stopped. The pestilence, floods and drought begin. The volcanoes and earthquakes accelerate and wind, tornadoes, hurricanes, fires, stores, all intensify and become more common. The prophesies of old come forth here and now. Know you are loved and protected. I have a good and perfect place for you that I will nurture with joyousness in your abundance. We are one child of flesh, of mind and sister in Spirit of our Creator Father God. Christ live in you child and never be afraid. You are watched over and blessed dearest one. Let the games begin.

Soul: This calendar passes and worries the mind. There is no need. Everything is in divine order, perfection. All things come together in perfect symphony of events. You see my dear, it is the time of changes for which you, I, we, have prepared for 7 years. Cycle complete, and now the earth brings you to work so to speak. Hand in hand with God the Father within you to aid in the planetary transformation. There is little that can be said of detail that would not make anticipation of events more stressful for the mortal mind. Work to illuminate this mind, flood it with golden light, divine mind energy and allow the magic of your Christ self to work deeply within it's limitations to free you from it's illusionary boundaries. I am ever within your heavenly Sphere and all that you requested is granted. Prosperity, abundance, love, joy, freedom, truth, the work. All in the palm of your hand. The perspective of time this week makes it seem to all be moving at a snails pace. Simply know better. It moves quickly and joyously. Don't miss out on the joy trying to figure out the next frame of the movie so to speak.

Diane: New, sending out God energy in all ways. Receiving same. Birthed 7 Phoenixes that joined together and took a ring of light to the Source. Found Spirit grids (as opposed to physical type grids) Had to separate everyone. They were big and awful, Samantha was the most emotional. Cut them all even to earth Mother and Spirit guides and masters. Spirit said a few days ago that I must turn to God now not them. Now every connection but God is cut and I know I can communicate with Bestali for example, God to God instead of through grid system.

God Within: Dear child of me. You are a good and abiding aspect of Gods true glory. You work hard to bring joyous reunion within and push hard to remove barriers to true self. Know that all is well and your joy body creates itself as divine play set into motion. Love is the very being of you now. Anger is fleeting and given no true energy. You see, we are one. God, God, God. The Mother, The Father, The Child Holy Ghost of love. There is no other! Rejoice in the ultimate step to your dominion in love.

Soul: Child of God, you are not ever alone in change. The universe changes with you. The trees sway in the wind of your change. The earth hums and creatures listen with careful intent to hear your song of God. All is well and things progress accordingly to the wishes of Divine Father within. There are many who feel these winds coming and going through their life. Open internally and allow the winds to center your Soul and blow it clean of any debris. All things cleanse you now and the cleansing is purification for a great new love to enter deeply into self. There are physical changes within your body that are causing small discomfort. Mostly needed hormonal adjustment, reopening of ovarian activity and adjustment of metabolism through thyroid. This is temporary discomfort. The time draws near to leave this place physically. Indeed you are ready to do this and you shall. There is but little left to do but accept the pieces of life as they come to you here. The rest is simple and easy. Do not be concerned with the synchronicity, it simply happens do you see? There is nothing else to do but allow it to happen. Truth is God and God is truth and both God and truth live inside of you. Freedom is within you not in a physical situation. You remain committed and this is good, good, good. Ever you are loved child of mine and ever more. I express through you more perfectly. You are moving into the other realm unknown to these ones and it is more significant than they could even ponder at this time. You are loved child of the Father. Christ within is you. Know this, be this, all your prayers are answered. Be ready to allow them a place in your heart and life now and you shall be in Montana within 6 weeks time and this is the Fathers plan for you as you will be the answer to the prayers of many.

Father / Mother God: Dearest one, dearest one, it is good. The expansion of this creation center to focus the gentle web of creation around your Sphere of heavenly self. Good indeed. This Mercury retrograde has been of great benefit to your growth and end to limitations. Now, I God, Father / Mother Christ self present in consciousness in female persona as it is female expression that this body shall be so to speak. Matters not if I be called Father while expressing the female for it is so, God be God my love. This often confused the mind in it's desire to categorize all things. God can only be categorized as all things. Know that body, mind, Soul, Spirit are all God and allow them wholeness and one expression instead of the many different expressions they have attempted all these years in life so to speak. They are one, let them be as one, act as one, love as one, express as one and this will be glorious expression indeed. There are many tests that come for those you love. Separate yourself from this drama and be moving on. You well be asked to remain, you must simply state that God wishes you not to remain, nothing more, no explanations. Simply that, no more. All is well dearest love and all moves perfectly into place. Do not concern with the actions or lack of actions of others. It is taken care of by God and all the many guides and masters expressing there in do you see? Be free dear God child, be free in your heart and the freedom you desire physically to move on is already granted to you.

Bestali: I am always with you that you know. I wanted only to tell you that I love you very much and I am proud of all the changes you create and it will be a good time for all to see the expression come forth as it should from all Gods on earth. Know that we are all ever at your side. Soon we will be traveling and many good experiences come your way and joyous times and this makes Bestali very happy to know you choose joy and oneness and reunion with God. That is what we have worked toward and it is a good day to be a guide.

Seat of Soul and small chakras to size of Sphere. Mom is back in Show Low now.

Diane: Friday May 24, the Healing Spirit. Gave signs to Ruth and Bob! Yesterday and today work on divine mind letting go of mind energy thoughts.

Soul: You are transforming dearest God child. You change without realization that change has truly occurred. It is humorous from the stand point of those who see how oblivious you and others are to this change. Goal is standing forth, Christ has been given expression. You have completed the internal tasks that make it so. The steps have been taken. Fly. There is not more limitation around or within you. You, I, we are free and ever more so and this cannot be changed. These aspects cannot be shut down once activated. It is impossible to come this far now and not proceed. Thought understands letters but is confused with the universal truth of Gods law! It shall come to understand fully and rejoice. Live now and do not stop. You help many and live and love in a life of joy. Beverlee wishes to hold and she cannot any more than you could jump and catch an eagle in flight. She feels it all happening and wants to ride but there is no ride. You know there is no way to ride, it is not possible for her to go where you are. Her body energy could not permit it without death, as her Kundalini has not yet opened. She wants to go but will remain much as the song Dog & the Butterfly. You are Butterfly. Below as dog she has to try, but cannot fly you see. You see God indeed sees all that is. Create now, we are God, love, light, Source, Creator, Master of the Wind and as such all that this universe is we are and will ever more be unhampered by the physical life.

Jesus: Welcome home dear sister and we shall be together face to face for lessons on understanding the use of Gods power in the modern world. The Father has already taught and shown you how and we shall put it into use so to speak. Never will you look back. It is good and you shall be a positive force for love in this world ever more. No evil so to speak will be able to behold you or be in your company. It is well and good.

God: Trust dear child is part of divine being.

Diane: When does trust become blind faith? What about conscious creation?

God: You are consciously creating, you simply think you should know and control the how of the creation. I am attempting to offer you all that you have desired to create and you question who? What? How? You must trust the process and trust the God within. I am not the personification of all the mortals that have hurt you and destroyed your ability to trust through their ignorance of the true divine Spirit of God. What would I gain by breaching trust, bringing pain unto you?

Diane: Growth for me is always the reason. Lessons in expectation, patience, fear, etc..

God: Dearest one are there any lessons in these things left that you have not already given self through previous life choices? Growth is constant whether it be lesson in patience or proof that trust in the divine can be true and real. Would both not offer growth? Which would be the positive child? To know that trust can be achieved truly would this not be the lesson that would enact joy? And have you not been choosing joy now? There is not a way for God within to truly ignore determinations and true choices. You have truly chosen joy so you instantaneously did not leap into endless joy. Do you think, feel or know that because of this it was not chosen?

Diane: No, I know it's a process but is doesn't change the fact that other choices appear to be not manifesting themselves and that I'm always left without the money and or tools to do what I'm being guided to do despite the fact that for years now I have consciously on level after level cleansed all issues about receiving and chosen not to have lack in my life, but to fully embrace abundance.

God: Indeed this has been a long process and this choice also has been truly made. Then why do you think I am not moving you into the direction of this abundance, because it is not obvious to you yet? Many things in your life have not be obvious, would you go back now and have them all be obvious? Do you see that many of your greatest journeys have been totally unknown to you. Be in the moment child. I have only your best interest to motivate the changes taking place in your life. Perhaps you will look back upon this time of great anxiety about the present and future changes for you and see they have led you right to where all of your dreams are manifest. So the vehicle so to speak is not necessarily to your greatest liking. If you can overlook your emotions about this one issue you will find that the hand of God within is reaching out and taking the hand of your physical waking self and walking you right to your creation in what at the moment is the easiest way. Is this not also been your choice?

Diane: It doesn't seem or feel like the easiest way to me.

God: Remove the glasses of old emotion and see that it is a quick means to an end for you and at the same time another is being helped to be where her God self wishes her to be and this is a good, good thing. Let go of your need to control everything. This need has only manifested you pain. Dearest one know that there is more in store than your mind can envision even in its more unlimited state. God can do what mortal mind is afraid to even conceive for fear that it may never come true, and for fear that it may! Know that you are always terminally emotionally out ahead of your physical present work to be in the now. Do not allow the now to pass you by in every minute. Striving to be where you are trying to get, you miss out on joyous experience with people in places that you pass through on your road home. You will arrive soon enough. Stop all of your hurry worry and know that indeed you can stop and smell the roses without delays in the scheduled arrival. The stop is scheduled in my dear much as you schedule food and rest stops as you travel across the country and arrive on time. Allow the unfolding of your life to occur and know that it is the joyous life you have chosen with love, health and abundance. You have worked long and hard on the within path my dear this does not go unnoticed or unrewarded. God is you and as you strive to go within and clear issues and face fears you are set free step by step into the beauty of your glorious kingdom of heaven. You are and ever will be loved dear child. Simply be in that love when you find moments where you are in resistance or fear of a physical situation and you will see that you are where you are meant to be.

Diane: That's where my frustration comes in knowing that I am supposed to do this in this way even though I don't want too. I checked the resistance to be sure it wasn't that I was making a wrong choice or perhaps I had a choice not in my best and highest good. It seems like I am forever in this same situation. When can I leave it behind? It feels so limiting and at times down right toxic!

God: Everything is laid out so that it will be a painless break so to speak and everyone involved will feel empowered. My dear, this is the way you wanted it to be. There are times when this must be set up and well orchestrated for it to come out in the best and highest good for all concerned. You knew this would take time and now you are simply losing patience. Remain calm and true to the knowing and trust God within you to do the rest. Patience has not always been an easy thing for you but faith and trust in the love you give and receive and your divine heritage as God will lead you through, frustration or breech in patience, you know this is nothing new my dear. Grab hold of it again and fill your being with it and you will let go of the rest and move on freely to the next step in your life knowing it well be a good place to be.

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